if u r reading my xanga, then try reading this: please do not always think u are the victim. and u have so many excuses for all the things. nothing is your fault. so i guess its all our fault? my fault? the society's fault? oh, how pathetic. i really sympathize you. but sorry, i cant help you. coz if you want to save yourself, you have to help yourself first. if u dont help yourself, no one will and no one can. so please, try not to think that u are the victim. 

do you know of the fun of being ignored? as if u dont exist? no one can prove your existence. only u yourself can prove your existence. if u know u exist, u do. if you think u dont exist and u try to make yourself exist, then i guess u dont even worth existing.